Happy Birthday Babycakes, I know it's a bit early, but it is the 28th here so deal :*

Author:goetterdamerung
Title: Time doesn't always heal
Fandom: Merlin
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur... ish
Rating: PG13
Warnings: No sex, not even implied (queue the shocked gasps). This is about love lost and unrequited love.

Summary: A millennia has passed and Merlin remembers.


( Time does not always heal )

Title: By Candlelight, He Can See
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Jensen/Jared Jared/Sandy(implied)
Series: None, One Shot
Warnings: Implied Het, BDSM, Wax Play, Angst

Author's Notes: A fic in two parts, each part tells one side. Each side tells of love, of lust and of loss.

Summary: Through the blind eyes of one, and through the other's eyes that are blinded by love.

( Part One )



( Part Two )

So I am now a fully fledged member of DreamWidth

You can find me Here if you are on there.

As before, I will be crossposting to both DW and LJ so no need to sign up just for little 'ole me ;þ~

Series Title: Vad Hjärtat Aldrig Ser (What the Heart Never Sees)
Book Title: Förlorad Igen (Lost again)
Chapter Title: Ängeln i Rummet (An Angel in the Room)
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur
Rating: NC-17
Author's Note: As before, this wont make much sense unless you have read Mellan Sommar och Höst (Between Summer and Autumn). Also, I have been asked several times why I have titles in Swedish so I shall extrapolate my reasoning here:
Partially it is a whim, but mostly it is due to the limits of the english language sometimes. Those of you who know me from previous fandoms are aware that most of my fics have a Scandinavian slant to them, whether that be title, theme, or even folklore. Swedish in particular has built in suffixes that go beyond the limits or extremes of emotion/feeling/intensities than are found in english. I suppose the best way to put it would be 'mostest, bestest, best' which although is not gramatically correct at all, does convey an extreme image, but personally, I find that the usage of such english extremes in an emotionally charged, serious story t be laughable. Ergo, I use the Swedish to convey the intensity and I use approximate English translations as well. So hopefully thatclears up why I use Swedish and other languages at times during my fics.

Summary: No matter which Parthenon you believe in, there is always an Angel looking out for you.


Previously: Jag Behöver Dig (I Need You) | Vår Tid Är Nu (Our Time is Now) | Broder Claudius (Brother Claudius) | Så Långt, Långtifrån Hem (So Very Far From Home) | Förnuftet Speglar Sanningen (Reason Reflects The Truth) |


( Ängeln i Rummet (An Angel in the Room) )

Series Title: Vad Hjärtat Aldrig Ser (What the Heart Never Sees)
Book Title: Förlorad Igen (Lost again)
Chapter Title: Förnuftet speglar sanningen (Reason Reflects The Truth)
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Mild SM, Spanking
Summary: Arthur sees the truth of his relationship with Merlin... and so do others


Previously: Jag Behöver Dig (I Need You) | Vår Tid Är Nu (Our Time is Now) | Broder Claudius (Brother Claudius) | Så Långt, Långtifrån Hem (So Very Far From Home) |




( Förnuftet speglar sanningen (Reason Reflects The Truth) )

Series Title: Vad Hjärtat Aldrig Ser (What the Heart Never Sees)
Book Title: Förlorad Igen (Lost again)
Chapter Title: Så Långt, Långtifrån Hem (So Very Far From Home)
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Truths can hurt even the most unlikely of souls




Previously: Jag Behöver Dig (I Need You) | Vår Tid Är Nu (Our Time is Now) | Broder Claudius (Brother Claudius) |


( Så Långt, Långtifrån Hem (So Very Far From Home) )

Kind of Ficced out atm, been writing solidly for the last month or so... not bad after a 2 year hiatus from Ficcing.

Still, need a break from writing for a day or two (or was that night or two), so what does one do instead of write in the wee hours??????

One bakes?!?!?!?

So far this evening I have two loaves of White bread, one loaf of Dark Rye Sour Dough with carraway seed, 3 dozen hot atheist buns and I haved just pulled out a Blackberry Scroll bun from the oven...

The Croissant dough is chillaxing in the fridge (why yes, I do make my own flaky pasty thank you for asking) and I still want to do the Kügelhopf if I get time.

Fuck, so wishing I was back in the UK atm, I miss HRH, I miss someone in bed with me and I MISS SEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank Christ I'm on holidays atm or these sleepless nights and work would end up killing me.

Mind you, on the subject of fic...

I have managed to get swept up into a new fandom - J2... I can't believe it RPS?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!??!

The irony is that I don't like supernatural, but just want to screw Jensen and Jared sideways/upsidedown/vertically with a twist even and *sigh* yet again

Merlin is still eating my brain so I am now active in two fandoms at once and my muse is pissing me off by not co-operating with either set of series atm.

At last count I have 3 Merlin series on the go, 4 stand alone Merlin fics done, One heavy J2 series and two stand alone J2 fics done...

that is about 180k words all totalled in a month

*whimpers*

At least the Angst is still running in top gear and I have fully embraced my destiny to torture/mutilate/rape/mind game and generally give all the protagonists in my fics fifteen different types of shit.

Nice to know THAT at least hasn't changed.

:þ~

Title: The Loser – Part 5/9
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Jensen/Jared
Rating: NC-17
Genre: ANGST (big time)
Warnings: Self Harm, Psychological Manipulation, Heavy angst (male style), Hardcore sex (eventually), Topping from the bottom
Disclaimer: Not mine, Kripke’s et al and some American mob.
Summary: Sometimes Losers can be winners to.





Previously: The Loser - Part 1 | - Part 2 | - Part 3 | - Part 4 |



( The Loser 5/9 )

Title: The Loser – Part 4/9
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Jensen/Jared
Rating: NC-17
Genre: ANGST (big time)
Warnings: Self Harm, Psychological Manipulation, Heavy angst (male style), Hardcore sex (eventually), Topping from the bottom
Disclaimer: Not mine, Kripke’s et al and some American mob.
Summary: Denial can be a wonderful thing, especially if you are the loser




Previous: The Loser - Part 1/9 | Part 2/9 | Part 3/9 |



( The Loser 4/9 )

Title: The Loser – Part 3/9
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Jensen/Jared
Rating: NC-17
Genre: ANGST (big time)
Warnings: Self Harm, Psychological Manipulation, Heavy angst (male style), Hardcore sex (eventually), Topping from the bottom
Disclaimer: Not mine, Kripke’s et al and some American mob.
Summary: Love’s a bitch, she always gets even in the end... and in the end you lose, you always lose.




Previously: The Loser - Part 1 | - Part 2 |



( The Loser - Part 3/9 )

Title: The Loser – Part 2/9
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Jensen/Jared
Rating: NC-17
Genre: ANGST (big time)
Warnings: Self Harm, Psychological Manipulation, Heavy angst (male style) Hardcore sex (eventually), Topping form the bottom
Disclaimer: Not mine, Kripke’s et al and some American mob.
Summary: Love is a game that two people play, but one will always be... The Loser




Previous: The Loser - Part 1/9 |



( The Loser - Part 2/9 )

Title: The Loser – Part 1
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Jensen/Jared
Rating: NC-17
Genre: ANGST (big time)
Warnings: Heavy angst (male style) Hardcore sex (eventually)
Disclaimer: Not mine, Kripke’s et al and some American mob.
Authors Notes: This was going to be PWP, then the angst monster reared its head now we have a series (glares at avon_09 see what you’ve got me doing now)
Summary: In love’s game, there isn’t always a happy ending... eventually someone is the loser.




( The Loser - Part 1 )

Title: Taking matters into your own hands
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: RPS Jensen/Jared
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Not mine, the boys are their own people... although I think Kripke owns their collective arses. This is fiction ergo not true.
Summary: When all he wanted was some privacy... instead he got it all.



( Taking Matters Into Your Own Hands )

Series Title: Vad Hjärtat Aldrig Ser (What the Heart Never Sees)
Book Title: Förlorad Igen (Lost again)
Chapter Title: Broder Claudius (Brother Claudius)
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Arthur would like to believe it is a coup d'etat, but will his first decrees set a chain of events in place that Camelot can not fight?


Previously: Jag Behöver Dig (I Need You) | Vår Tid Är Nu (Our Time is Now) |



( Broder Claudius (Brother Claudius) )

Title: Not a Fag, but...
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: RPS Jensen/Jared
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Evil Jensen, Non-con, Rape, Explicit violence, Explicit Sex
Author’s Notes: Written for avon_09 My first fic in SPN Fandom, this is fairly hardcore, but those of you from other fandoms who know me are used to that so welcome to me :þ
About the title, I am a gay male so don’t start on about the word fag, it is used in the fic as a LITERARY DEVICE only, so no crap, k? Unbeta’d written in 40 minutes, so all mistakes my own
Summary: Sometimes you should never, ever cross a mate.

ETA. Sorry, it has just been pointed out that the name Donna is actually J's mother's name, the delightful scriptcat has corrected this for me.

( Not a Fag, but... )

Title: Let’s Play
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur
Genre: PWP, Dom!Merlin (as if there was a doubt with me writing), Kink – Wax Play, Bondage, Toy Play
Rating: Well above NC-17 (what a shocker)
Warnings: Dom/sub scene with explicit sex and moderate violence.
Authors Notes: Not for the squeamish, this is by far the heaviest I have written to date including my TW Ragarok Cycle. Don’t try this at home kids, I am an experienced Dom and have been involved in scenarios of this calibre for many years. So yes, the positions and activities described herein are accurate, with a certain allowance for 6th century technology.
Summary: Merlin shows Arthur some of the darker games he knows.


3000 Words of pure Porn


( Let's Play )

Series Title: Vad Hjärtat Aldrig Ser (What the Heart Never Sees)
Book Title: Förlorad Igen (Lost again)
Chapter Title: Vår Tid är Nu (Our Time is Now)
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur
Rating: NC-17
Summary: No longer a falcon, Merlin still shows he’s an animal
Preivously: Jag Behöver Dig (I Need You)



( Vår Tid är Nu (Our Time is Now) )

Series Title: Vad Hjärtat Aldrig Ser (What the Heart Never Sees)
Book Title: Förlorad Igen (Lost again)
Chapter Title: Jag Behöver Dig (I Need You )
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Five years have passed since Merlin’s execution and Arthur still remembers and hopes.
Authors Notes: This will make no sense what so ever if you have not read Book I Mellan Sommar och Höst first.


( Behöver Dig Nu )

Series: Vad Hjärtat Aldrig Ser (What the Heart Never Sees)
Book Title: Mellan Sommar och Höst (Between Summer and Autumn)
Chapter Title: Sista Morgonen (The Last Morning)
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur
Rating: NC-17
Authors Notes: This is the final instalment in this arc, the next arc continues five years into the future with Uther on his deathbed and an old acquaintance returning to Camelot.
Summary: Read and see



Previously: Äntligen (Finally) | Berusa Mig (Intoxicate Me) | Varmt och Djupt (Hot and Deep) | Helig Man (Holy Man) | Aldrig Som Främlingar (Never as Strangers)| Genom Ett Krossat Fönster (Through a Broken Window) | Hur Kan Du Lova Mig? (How Can You Promise Me?) | Tillbaks Igen (Back Again) | Kött och Blod (Flesh and Blood) | Gränsen Mellan Kärlek och Hat (The Boundary Between Love and Hate) |



( Sista Morgonen (The Last Morning) )

Series: Vad Hjärtat Aldrig Ser (What the Heart Never Sees)
Book Title: Mellan Sommar och Höst (Between Summer and Autumn)
Chapter Title: Gränsen Mellan Kärlek och Hat (The Boundary Between Love and Hate)
Author: goetterdamerung
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur
Rating: NC-17
Summary: What they don’t know will not hurt them, but when everyone suspects they know... that is a different story


Previously: Äntligen (Finally) | Berusa Mig (Intoxicate Me) | Varmt och Djupt (Hot and Deep) | Helig Man (Holy Man) | Aldrig Som Främlingar (Never as Strangers)| Genom Ett Krossat Fönster (Through a Broken Window) | Hur Kan Du Lova Mig? (How Can You Promise Me?) | Tillbaks Igen (Back Again) | Kött och Blod (Flesh and Blood) |




( Gränsen Mellan Kärlek och Hat (The Boundary Between Love and Hate) )